twenty nine | year two

the days between christmas and new years are always a little strange for me – curiously anticlimactic and yet oddly anticipatory.  everyone seems to breeze through the days at a hurried pace, rushing to get to the new year — there, everything will be shiny and fresh and untouched; there, we can start again, with a spring in our step and a freshly cleansed palate.

and there, we realize, as we have before, that the new year is really just like the old one — that nothing is ever erased or forgotten; that we are the sum of all our days, no matter how important or ordinary.

i have trouble with these in between days — something always feels a bit off, and i’m coming to understand that it’s because i’m expecting something from the new year that i know will never really come.  the slates will not be cleaned, the scores will not be evened, the tables will not be turned.  it’s just another day, really.

so maybe it’s all in the perspective.
sure, it’s just another day, but it’s a day filled with possibility and promise.

every day is a chance to get it right,
a chance to make a difference,
a chance to start again.

there is only one day left,

always starting over:

it is given to us at dawn

and taken away from us at dusk.

(j.p. sartre)

make it count.


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Posted by Tweets that mention there's beauty in the breakdown - twenty nine | year two -- Topsy.com on 30 December 2009 @ 7am

along the same lines of making it count….LEAVE a mark! happy new year heather.

Posted by johnwaire | photo on 30 December 2009 @ 7am

well said, john! happy new year to you, as well.

Posted by heatherdyan on 30 December 2009 @ 7am

Very well put. I always admire how you can make your point eloquently in few words.

Posted by Adam on 30 December 2009 @ 11am

So true! That week in between is a strange one. I loved this post and how it made me think.

Posted by Fighting Windmills on 2 January 2010 @ 1pm

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