IVF #2: The Feelings

The D&C was three days ago.  I don’t really know what to say — I went into the surgical suite technically pregnant, and I left empty.  I wasn’t really prepared for all the feelings, both physical and emotional, that would follow.  It’s been a difficult three days.  It’s felt more like three years.  I was […]

just before dawn

you know those things we all hold on to?  the if onlys? if only i had the time… if only i had the money… if only i had the words… those things become crutches, excuses, diversions, distractions, ways out of uncomfortable moments, and, for me, they become a trap, a holding pattern.  and i get […]

i dreamed a dream

i’ve been sick.  i came to this realization last wednesday, when my tell-tale sore throat made it’s first appearance, but i resisted admitting defeat until thursday afternoon.  by friday, i was already two bowls of chicken noodle soup down, and on my way to the doctor.  recovery has taken the better part of the past […]

such stuff as dreams are made

“We are such stuff As dreams are made on and our little life Is rounded with a sleep…” –William Shakespeare, The Tempest (IV, i, 156-157) i am one of the lucky ones. sleep comes easily to me and it always has. when i hear stories from people who have insomnia, i cannot understand what it […]