love

all of this

you only need one man to love you. but him to love you free like a wildfire, crazy like the moon, always like tomorrow, sudden like an inhale and overcoming like the tides. only one man and all of this. (c. joybell c.)

only this

we need, in love, to practice only this: letting each other go. for holding on comes easily; we do not need to learn it. (rainer maria rilke)

the most beautiful lie

distance, timing, breakdown, fighting silence, the train runs off its tracks kiss me, try to fix it could you just try to listen? hang up, give up,  for the life of us we can’t get back. and try as i might, i just can’t get back.  there’s nothing left to say or do — it’s [...]

the seventeenth of december

i have a scar that rests quietly on my left knee. it came to be on a cold december night in 1989 when i slipped on a patch of ice. my boyfriend didn’t catch me and so i tumbled awkwardly onto the ground. my knee still tells the story. little did i know, it was [...]

surrender

how do you sum up a relationship in words? are there words enough to say what it all meant? perhaps just this: it mattered. you mattered. we mattered. no, it didn’t last forever. no, not all the promises were kept. but it was special, and for a time, it was ours.

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