love

the circle around the zero

a lover doesn’t figure the odds. he figures he came clean from god as a gift without a reason, so he gives without cause or calculation or limit. a conventionally religious person behaves a certain way to achieve salvation. a lover gambles everything, the self, the circle around the zero! he or she cuts and [...]

1993 – 2009 | remembering

(love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation) it’s one year later, and i still can’t believe how lucky i was to share sixteen years of my life with the siamese cat i called chloe. one look into her piercing azure eyes that november day in 1993, and i was hooked. she [...]

twenty one | year two

from the archives (my favourite post from 2008) words how do you sum up a relationship in words? years of falling asleep together, laughing together, building a life together — are there words enough to say what it all meant? perhaps just this: it mattered. you mattered. we mattered. no, it didn’t last forever. no, [...]

thousand word thursday

let your love be like the misty rains, coming softly, but flooding the river. (malagasy proverb)

10.30.99

dear m.e.w., on this day, ten years ago, we were to be married — i thee wed, till death do us part, throw the rice — it was to be our day, our beginning, but it never happened.  i pause today to remember and to say some of the things i couldn’t say, all those [...]

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