Posts Tagged ‘infertility’

I’m Still Here

It’s true, I am still here. I’m trying my best to carry on, whatever that means. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done.  This is the darkest place I’ve ever been.  I still don’t know the way out, if there is one.  I suspect there isn’t, so I’m trying my best to just get through […]

IVF #2: D&C Tomorrow

Ever since the devastating news last Friday, I’ve been terrified of miscarrying naturally. I decided pretty early on, that of the three options presented to me (natural miscarriage, chemically-induced miscarriage, or D&C), I wanted the D&C. I didn’t want to have to wait around for days, weeks, possibly up to a month, for my body […]

IVF #2: All is Lost

Today’s ultrasound showed that our baby had stopped developing about a week ago.  There was no heartbeat, no movement, no life. It’s over and all is lost. I don’t know how I will ever be okay again.

IVF #2: 7 Weeks Pregnant

Today, I’m seven weeks pregnant!  Baby Smith is about the size of a raspberry and I’m feeling pretty okay.  Here’s a quick list of my current symptoms:  fatigue ++, sore chest, frequent urination (I’m waking up once or twice a night), bloating, increased salivation, and increased appetite.  I often feel like I could eat a […]

IVF #2: Beating the Control

Today is 18DP5DT (also known as 5 weeks and 2 days pregnant), and, on a whim, I took a home pregnancy test.  It was such a beautiful result: This, my friends, is what we in the IVF community call Beating the Control.  It’s is when the test line is DARKER than the control line, and […]

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