Posts Tagged ‘loss’

I am the face of miscarriage

[As featured on Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope] October 15th is National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Day. Last October 15th, I was blissfully, naively pregnant — as one should be — taking belly photos with my husband and dreaming about finally being a family of three. After struggling with infertility for over 2 years, […]

seeds of time

even though it was twelve years ago, i clearly remember rushing to click ‘delete’ as fast as i could. i didn’t want to read his words again. i didn’t want them to get through. i didn’t want to imagine him sending them as a last attempt to salvage a love that i never really felt. i […]

all the things i couldn't say

dear m.e.w., i will never forget that time i called you, a little less than four weeks before our wedding, to say that i couldn’t marry you. “i’m coming down this weekend. i need to talk to you about something,” i said. “just tell me now,” you replied, “i don’t want to wait for the […]

a moment

after you explained to me, again, why we wouldn’t work, why we couldn’t be together, you walked me out to my car. “i’m sorry,” you said. “me too, ” i replied. i turned to open my car door and you reached out to catch my arm. “can i at least have a hug?” you asked. […]


goodbye i heard the news today. i lost you all over again. i cannot speak of this, except to say goodbye, and finally mean it.