poem of the day

Blessing for the Longest Night

All throughout these months, as the shadows have lengthened, this blessing has been gathering itself, making ready, preparing for this night. It has practiced walking in the dark, traveling with its eyes closed, feeling its way by memory, by touch, by the pull of the moon even as it wanes. So believe me when I […]

Thank You

I have just said Something Ridiculous to you And in response, Your glorious laughter. These are the days The sun Is swimming back To the east And the light on the water Gleams As never, it seems, before. I can’t remember Every spring, I can’t remember Everything- So many years! Are the morning kisses The […]

The Truelove

There is a faith in loving fiercely the one who is rightfully yours, especially if you have waited years and especially if part of you never believed you could deserve this loved and beckoning hand held out to you this way. I am thinking of faith now and the testaments of loneliness and what we […]

On Infertility, and Baby Loss, and Childlessness

In case maybe you were wondering, on August 11, 2016, my husband and I transferred our last beautiful embryo — and then we waited, and hoped, and dreamed, and imagined our life as parents. As much as I wish I could say otherwise, the transfer was not successful. We are not pregnant. We are disappointed, and angry, […]

let it go

no, i’m not quoting the goosebump-inducing disney movie, i’m quoting a bit of wisdom from my pal e.e.cummings: i remembered this poem right when i needed it most. when i felt completely misunderstood, ignored, hurt, disrespected, and betrayed by someone i expected to treat me better. someone i thought was sensitive and compassionate. someone i […]

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